A different sort of before and after.
For me, 2020-2021 will forever remain as a reminder, of just HOW MUCH can change in only 12 months.
A reminder that no matter how hard things get, good is just around the corner.
And that the hard- is always opportunity to learn.
Here are some of those learnings 💜
I caught COVID twice & it KICKED MY BUTT.
But it taught me the hell of a lot about myself.
I had to accept that I slowed down my own recovery, because I wanted to get back to work, even though deep down, I knew I wasn’t ready!
I would teach a class, run upstairs and get straight into bed, sleep and then find just enough energy to do my PT- it was CRAZY. What was I thinking?! My poor nervous system 😂
I had to acknowledge that I unconsciously spent a lot of my life, in high adrenaline states, constantly achieving (over achieving, because I believed I wasn’t good enough) & my job now, was to work in harmony, and not to constantly be rushing to get to the next task. (anyone who knows me, will understand how impossible that felt) - No wonder I was back teaching so soon- I didn’t know I could, or how, to slow down!
I had to learn how to be patient with my body & give it time to heal. What I wanted became irrelevant, I had to listen!
I practiced a new style of meditation everyday for 30 days. Through this, I was able to unlock some old trauma I had buried in my body. I experienced what it was like to have a ‘shake out’ during meditation and eventually became able to shake outside of meditative states. This has been incredibly healing for me.
I put on weight & remembered how it felt to live in a body that was heavy, slow and tired ALL the time. I re- lived my days of body dysmorphia and learned how to get myself back into a state of balance and positive reality, even when my body remained the same. (yes it’s possible to be heavier than what you’d like and still be happy!)
When the gyms closed, I thought I’d lose my business, it turns out, in that same year, I opened up my very own studio @awc.wellnesstudios & I’m busier than before lockdown!
Life is a journey, out of the toughest times, are the biggest learnings..
Embrace it all 💜
